Since I've started blogging, I've kept a tradition of always leaving an update on or close to New Year's day, even if I didn't post anything else that year. Since this is the only remaining blog I have, I'll continue that tradition, and this may be my last year of doing so, as well as my last blog entry.
2009 was probably the crappiest year of the decade. It's been a year marked by celebrity deaths, diplomatic faux pas, kids not being in wierd-ass weather balloons, and a year where such musical atrocities as Owl City's Fireflies could reach the top of the charts. I doubt anyone will look back at the year 2009 fondly. Unless they really like Fireflies or something.
For me 2009 was pretty life changing. I've taken so many steps at improving my life and taken many risks in doing so. The biggest change has been in my social life, in that I actually have one now. I went to my old church and met like-minded people, and I have friends at Xavier who I talk to and study with regularly. I found out that my Alliance buds are playing both sides of the fence and rolled Hordies on Sen'Jin, so we're having good times again, like old times. My career aspirations have once again brought me around to the Navy, who is offering an impressive internship in clinical psychology, and one I aspire to getting. I've even entertained the thought of joining the Navy as a career. To be honest, it provides better job security in this economy than a civilian job, as well as outstanding benefits and a lifestyle I understand.
I guess in that sense, 2009 was a good year for me. And to be honest, I have gained a sense of peace I haven't ever felt in my past years. Maybe it's just a part of growing up or losing half the battles I chose to fight this year. In losing those battles, I've learned how never to lose like that again. Through being humbled and wisened by those defeats, I find myself able to win more of the battles I find myself in. I used to never fight battles or take risks as a kid for fear of embarrassment or consequence and I was never at peace with myself. Now, for once, despite earning the embarrassments and failures I once feared, I'm happy, and the victories I've achieved more than make up for them.
In the past, during darker days of my life, I had felt it necessary to start throwing facets of myself away because I was tired of the pain they brought me. I was tired of being an introvert, so I started putting myself in public situations, Now, I love being in the company of others. I did this with many facets of my personality, and a lot of the changes I made became me. Instead of being a bystander in life, I became an active participant, I made many more friends and achieved so much more than when I was meek and afraid. When I discussed this with a friend, they seemed bothered that I would abandon myself and change my personality like that. My answer was that I wasn't content with who I was, and I'm happier this way, and more liked. He said "but you'd be half a man," to which I replied that "I'd rather be half a man than a complete failure." I have yet to see a complete man, anyway. Nobody walks away from life without losing something.
Enough emo. I will close with my resolutions:
1. Finish reading Aristotle's Nichomachean Ethics
2. Grow a larger pair of pectoral muscles so I can shamelessly grope myself.
3. Do cool stuff in Warcraft{/b]
a. Part Daggerella over to Sen'Jin to play with my buds and get her the Bloodsail Admiral title.
b. Achieve the Argent Champion title for Keondric and get him the Argent Charger
c. Raid again.
4. Start with the first prototype of my comic
5. Resurrect Billy Mays to end the recession
6. Study the Heidelberg Catechism
This is my last entry here. I don't see any need to stick around, since I don't do anything anyway. Take care, all 1 of you reading this. Bis später.
Hey, man. Just thought I'd drop by and say Happy Birthday. I hope you have a good one and you get that music program you want. (I'd love to hear composition by you.)
Hey, I know Mith's favorite colors is pink (and I think she likes white and red, too), but what are your favorite colors? This is just random curiosity talking here.
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